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Oct. 13th, 2006

Today, I am 25. I'm writing this from the 12th floor. We are not high enough above the ground the world is a postage stamp, nor are we low enough that people are cloying. I have a thing about heights. I like staring out windows. If there are trees and empty alleyways, as there are here, it's soothing.

As with all heights, I wonder, always, what it's like to fall. When I used to live on the 5th floor in Kuala Lumpur, I liked to go up to the top floor. There was a ladder and a hatch that led to a small space on the roof. People would go up there with beer. There were often cats in the stairwell, strays from the street. On the 12th floor in Bangkok, we have small balconies in two rooms. There are lots of places from which to fall.

Now that I'm here, I don't really want to leave. I think saying life is idyllic is pushing it, but I have room to breathe.

I have just learnt how to tie my hair into a bun. It's only taken me about 13 years since I learnt how to tie a messy ponytail. I have terrible looking good skills. At this point, friends will stage whisper. Let me tell you that they lie. Even if you are one of those friends, believing in my profound ugliness is one of the cornerstones of my personality. Masochism runs.

mokie's been saying I should quit whinging and come to terms with the idea that relaxing is good. The truth is that I haven't written much more than 400 words since three weeks ago. I desperately need to get my workshop plan and associated exercise material out of my head and onto paper. I feel like buying myself more birthday presents. This is greed. I don't think I can afford to buy myself more of much, especially not since I'm still in Bangkok. I don't get many shopping urges for clothes. I actually need some clips and hairpins -- I was looking for some in particular designs I saw in Kuala Lumpur, wood or silver, nothing fancy with rhinestones. The wooden hairpins would have a single string with a bead or a small decorative item. The silver clip I'm looking for is more of a typical Malay or Nyonya design, with filligree flora. I'm sort of looking for a decent vest-top. Nice (either black or white) long-sleeved tops with filligrees or embroidery. Cotton all-white hippie shirts. A pair of decent boots with good traction, no heels and lots of buckles. These are all pretty specific -- not surprisingly, I haven't seen them yet. When left alone for too long, I spend all my money buying specific CDs.

I should really be writing.


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Oct. 13th, 2006 09:39 am (UTC)
Thank you. :)

It's strange, but I always thought I was a year older too. Though I think you shattered that illusion when I was 19. We were both just out of FC. And out you pointed I was a puppy!
Oct. 13th, 2006 10:58 am (UTC)
I remembered your birthday was these days, but I couldn't remember the exact day (>_<)
Oct. 13th, 2006 05:47 pm (UTC)
Wow, thanks! :)
Oct. 13th, 2006 12:02 pm (UTC)
yay! happy birthday :D

i buy myself birthday presents all the time...year round in fact
Oct. 13th, 2006 05:48 pm (UTC)
Thanks! I feel guilty every time I think about it. ;)
Slowly, in tiny footsteps, I'll get there...
Oct. 13th, 2006 01:19 pm (UTC)
Happy birthday Hammy :)
Oct. 13th, 2006 05:49 pm (UTC)
Thank you, Gizzbob. Y'know, I still remember your hamster sandwich icon. It's funny, but every time I see you post on my flist, the first thing I think about is the hamster sandwich. ;)
Oct. 13th, 2006 05:51 pm (UTC)
I can try to dig it out as a special birthday treat if you like? I know how you love the abuse really :D
Oct. 13th, 2006 05:53 pm (UTC)
Oh, ooo! I really did think the wee hamster was cute. Sandwiched though he was. ;)
Oct. 13th, 2006 01:28 pm (UTC)
Happy Birthday! :)
Oct. 13th, 2006 05:50 pm (UTC)
Thank you! :)
As I recall, you're a Libra toooooooo. So yours will be in about a week!
Oct. 13th, 2006 05:56 pm (UTC)
hee, i am, I'm an early-cusp libra, though -- so it was a couple weeks ago! :D
Oct. 13th, 2006 06:18 pm (UTC)
*facepalm* I am so truly fiendish. Didn't I wish you happy birthday a couple of weeks ago? ;)
Oct. 13th, 2006 01:35 pm (UTC)
Happy Birthday, Afi!
Oct. 13th, 2006 05:50 pm (UTC)
Thanks, Pam. It's good to see you too! :)
Oct. 13th, 2006 03:28 pm (UTC)
Happy Birthday!

For what it's worth, I can't tie my hair in a bun either, but that's more primarily because my hair slips out of everything.
Oct. 13th, 2006 05:52 pm (UTC)
Happily, I thank you!

So ill-exercised are my arms, the effort of twisting my own hair into the right configuration once gives me asthmatic noises. ;)
Oct. 13th, 2006 05:55 pm (UTC)
You are too funny. :)
Oct. 13th, 2006 06:16 pm (UTC)
Except it's truuuuue. ;)
You should see me trying to spring open a hair-claw. Whoever designed this must've been some kind of arm wrestler.
Oct. 14th, 2006 02:42 am (UTC)
Happy birthday, freaky! Man, it seems like just yesterday you were a wee bairn.
Oct. 14th, 2006 05:34 pm (UTC)
You've been warning me since I met you that I might see this day, when I reach a point and suddenly realize, great scott, I've wasted half my life not doing stuff for me!

It is freaky. ;)
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